The Ease of Being Overstimulated

March 12, 2010
I work mostly with middle schoolers. And I love my middle schoolers. For the most part I understand why they make the decisions they do, what drives their moods, and what things effect them. I remember very well being that age and being overly excited most of the time. A couple weeks ago one of my students said to me, "I'm shining Ms. Sarah, you can see that." And I could. A boy had just said something to her and she was visibly glowing. I asked her though - because at that point she was having a very hard time pulling it together to finish the project we were working on - how she could continue shining, but still finish all the things that she needed to. This has been a question I have repeatedly discussed with my middle schoolers. How can we be excited about things, but not to the point that it makes it impossible for us to complete the other things in our lives?

It occurs to me that it has been a long hard journey for myself to even begin to approach not being overstimulated all of the time. Our society is based on being constantly bombarded by stimulation, from advertising (which consumes more and more of what should be our public space), to television and other media, to the things that we consume. Living in a society where the caffeine high has become the norm, where the food we eat does not calm and sooth our nerves, but rather stresses our bodies more, how can we even begin to find peace? And how can we teach it to our children? My approach begins with questioning. Questioning what happens when we shine to the point of excess, when we cannot concentrate or take ourselves seriously because we are hurtling forward like a train down a mountain with no breaks. Answering questions becomes the first way to bring awareness to what one is doing, how one is acting and why. And this awareness is the first step toward peace. It is very easy to remain overstimulated though and I am afriad that many people choose the ease that falling down a mountain allows. It does not require self-reflection, critical thinking or acknowledging the difficult choices life often presents us with. In order to find peace, one must really look at and be willing to see both the good and bad in oneself and others, the potential joy and pain that any moment offers. That is what would calm my student down after that boy speaks to her, the acknowledgement that something good, but also something bad may come of it. I worry though that with the amount of junk food our young people consume, with the amount of violence in the movies they watch and the encouragment of their friends that they will continue to choose being overstimulated. I cannot prevent them from making this choice, but I can continue to question them, to question myself. Question them about how they feel after eating McDonalds, question them about whether they are taking themselves seriously, about why they say and do the things that they do, about what they want out of life and what they need to get it.
 
 

On the Peace Corps Application Process

March 12, 2010
For anyone that is interested in applying to be a Peace Corps volunteer I thought it might be interesting and possibly helpful to write about my experience with the process. After having served two years as an Americorps member I was sure that I was ready to start my Peace Corps application. I went to an information session in June or July of last year and then got my application in by early August. The application itself is pretty standard, basic personal information, essays about why one wa...
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Confidence vs. Cockiness

March 12, 2010
I was thinking about where the line between confidence and cockiness is drawn and here is what I have come up with. I am sure there are a myriad of other ways the distinction could be drawn, but this is a start. Confidence is having faith in oneself, but acknowledging the ability to make mistakes and admitting the mistakes when they occur. Cockiness is having unquestioned faith in oneself and the belief nothing one does is a mistake. A complete lack of confidence causes one to believe that ev...
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On Consumption

March 10, 2010
This post was inspired by a conversation I had last night about finding the things that we need to do in life, how education often confuses this process, and the inherent ability of people to learn. I was speaking with someone in the video game industry who will be coming to do a workshop with my youth program and we were talking about how he got into the field. He said that video games were one of those things that consumed him - that he wanted to know more about, wanted to know how they wor...
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Balancing Desires, Respecting Oneself and Others

March 9, 2010
Why do so many people only think about themselves? I understand the importance of needing to know what one wants and being able to articulate it, otherwise it will never be had, but at the same time, when what one wants will have an effect on another person, the other person's desires and needs should be taken into account before one acts. Relationships must be reciprocal in order to be healthy. This has much to do with the Walmart Remington debate. If Walmart was a person (which actually as ...
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Should Walmart Come to Remington?

March 8, 2010
I would prefer that a Walmart not be built in Remington. There seem to me enough Walmart stores around Baltimore City, but I have a car and I can drive half hour in just about any direction and hit a Walmart. For people without a car however, I see the draw of having a Walmart within city limits. What is most important in the discussion about whether to open a Walmart on the corner of 25th and Howard is what the people that live there think about it, whether they have a place to voice their t...
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I Heart Smalltimore

March 6, 2010
I didn't know how I would feel about moving to a small city. Having lived in New York for seven years, there was something that I enjoyed about the anonymity it allowed. And having lived in New York for seven years, there was something oppressive that happened when I began to know enough people to run into them randomly on the street or when I would recognized strangers, simply because our patterns overlapped. And yet here I am, in Baltimore, I have been here for just about three years now an...
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Access to Health Care (Or Lack of It) as Punishment and Torture

March 5, 2010
I made a comparison in yesterdays post of lack of access to health care being akin to physical torture. After reading the following article this morning, I am convinced that health care is being used as a means of punishment and torture here within the borders of the United States and not just in the way that it coerces working people into a powerless position, but also the way it is being managed in our country's jails.

"The Terrible Case of Jamie Scott: How an $11 Robbery in Mississippi May ...
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Entering the Health Care Debate

March 4, 2010
I am one of those people who believes that access to health care is a human right and that everyone should be able to choose a doctor, see them when they want, and go to the hospital during emergencies without having the anxiety of massive medical bills upon discharge. I was an Americorps member for the last two years and at the end of my term became self-employed. My father categorizes me as one of those people who choose not to have health care. I feel that was not the choice I made, if giv...
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The Cultural Significance of Naming

March 3, 2010
In the United States the enormous cultural production industry often times makes it difficult for individuals to find space to create true culture. Culture is something that comes from people, not from industry, and not from mass production. One of the few spaces I see in which people have the ability to and are using this ability to create culture is in naming. I had a discussion while home over the holidays about this. It started with one of those studies about how people with names like Jo...
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