The Myth of Self-Control

June 30, 2010
Every time I go into Target or some other large store where it seems that one can buy anything, I have the compulsion to buy a snack. It seems that every aisle one walks down, one is bombarded with some sort of food like substance that would most likely taste good, but in no way shape or form is good for you. I was in Target yesterday trying to buy paper towels, but the store is being renovated and I couldn't find them anywhere. I was hungry, having come straight from work and I did want a snack, but looking at all of those bags of chips, candy, and other crap that is marketed as food turned my stomach. I detoxed last week, cutting out all sugar, caffeine, alcohol, wheat, and dairy from my diet and doing this actually made my cravings much less. So walking through the Target aisles I had the desire for something to snack on, but because I have been treating myself right, I also had the strength to resist it. It got me thinking though that in a weaker state, I definitely would have purchased some chex mix or cookies or even candy. This led me to the question of self-control. I decided that self-control is a myth. There are just moments when one's strength is greater than one's weaknesses and moments when one's weaknesses hugely outweigh one's strengths. Circumstances then play a huge role in self-control. If one is in a weakened and vulnerable state, one is more likely to succumb to eating unhealthily in an environment that is full of unhealthy offerings. If one feels strong, then one can make it through an environment of temptations without partaking. Strengths and weaknesses are not constant however and this is why a store like Target that has a constant set of shelves with things that we don't need problematic. Of course saying that unhealthy patterns are all circumstantial overlooks the HUGE power that we as individuals have to choose at least some of what surrounds us. We can choose to work toward peace and try not to go to places full of unhealthy things when we are feeling weak or we can choose to allow unhealthy, chaotic, and violent things to surround us.

Children do not have it so easy, much of what they can choose from is decided by the adults in their lives. This is why adults MUST consider how their choices not only effect themselves, but the young people around them. Choose wisely.
 

The Only Question is: What Can I Do?

June 21, 2010

The title of today's blog is taken from a book by Walter Mosley called "The Right Mistake." The point in the story where I found the title is one in which Socrates Fortlow, a sixty-year-old ex-con has decided to start a school and has gathered a group of people around a table for food and then an intense discussion. Socrates gathers local people of all races and social statuses and then asks them to think about what they can do. He acknowledges that the world is messed up and that most of the...


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Can We Be Unique Without Needing to be Special?

June 17, 2010
Is it human to want to prove that one is better than someone else? Or does this priority come out of living in society? Or living in a society where power is not equal?

I am teaching summer camp this week and yesterday my students asked me to tell the tale of the "Emperor's New Clothes". My version was definitely not exactly what I had been told as a little girl, but it was close. The story came near to some thoughts of my own about being unique versus the need to be special.

I want to differen...
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Awareness of Words

June 9, 2010
If one does not pay attention to the words that one uses then it becomes very easy to isolate oneself (even if not alone, then within one group of people whom all speak the same). The most extreme case of this is in speaking another language than those that surround you, but communication of another sort is always possible, but some will immediately dismiss a person for speaking that which they do not understand. I am thinking more about language that is understood, but easily drives people a...
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Living in Emergency

June 8, 2010
I saw Living in Emergency: Stories of Doctor's Without Borders while in New York this past weekend. The film follows four volunteer doctors during a tour with MSF (Médecines Sans Frontières/Doctors Without Borders). This wasn't a film about MSF however, it was a film about the individuals who have decided to serve with MSF. It investigates the reasons behind the decision to go, the pressure of having to practice medicine in extreme circumstances, and how these experiences affect each doctor...
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On Freedom

June 3, 2010
I started reading Jean-Luc Nancy's The Experience of Freedom on the beach yesterday. Here are some thoughts I had on the nature of freedom...

Freedom is the actualization of potential. It is not only having the power to act, but the power to represent the self in these actions. Nancy quotes Kant on the subject, "[freedom is] the power to be by means of one's representations the cause of the reality of these same representations." I agree with this statement and believe that our work toward fre...
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Shed Identity for Being

May 29, 2010
"Set out afresh the sum to which you attach value and of which you take account."

This quote is from The Thirtieth Year a short story by Ingborg Bachmann. I read it several years ago and remember being blown away and feeling much of what was in it, but now that I am in my thirtieth year I feel even closer to the meaning within Bachmann's words. I highly recommend the story, it is about a man in his thirtieth year that suddenly finds himself changed, he searches for something, something differe...
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Honest Expression

May 24, 2010
I am currently co-facilitating a project with two amazing groups of people, the young people I work with in my program at the Youth Dreamers and a group of artists that manage and curate a green space on 33rd street here in Baltimore City. We had our first workshop last Thursday and I wasn't sure how it would go. Most planning had happened through e-mail and I didn't know what to expect when all the people came together face-to-face. My students were a little nervous, one of them sick, and we...
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"Turn Around, Turn Around, Turn Around

May 22, 2010
And you may come full circle and be new here again."

From I'm New Here by Gil Scott Heron on his first album in 15 years of the same title. This song came on my i-pod yesterday after a challenging day. A day of some disappointments, some bad surprises, and pure exhaustion. I've been doing much thinking recently about my next choices, where I am going to go and what I am going to do and I will admit, it has been stressful. I realized yesterday that I am at a place where I am new here. I have ch...
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Even Noam Chomsky Needs a Day Off and So Do I

May 20, 2010
The following article about Noam Chomsky taking a day off to rest and relax is pretty amusing and made me consider my own life and whether I was doing enough to keep healthy and sane amidst all that needs to be done: http://www.theonion.com/articles/exhausted-noam-chomsky-just-going-to-try-and-enjoy,17404/

I also read it right before I actually took the first long weekend I have had in a while. Most of my weekends currently are one day. Getting away makes a huge difference. I spent the weekend...
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